just a thought...

"This life is what you make it. No matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they'll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they're your true best friends. Don't let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they'll come and go too. And babe, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can't give up becuase if you give up, you'll never find your soul mate. You'll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don't, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about.” marilyn monroe <3

found this quote... and LOVE it.

time flies... really.

So this summer was a good one... i already said that. But one main reason why I was dreading for it to end was it meant time for Alex to leave for college. This summer was by far the best summer i've ever had! I can't think of a day Alex and I weren't together. It was filled with our deep conversations, constant sleepovers, daily trips to seven peaks, eating out at least three times a week, jam sessions, and mucho more. The last week was filled with the mall, our last sleepover, doorbell ditching brownies,working our last shift together and then she left... I knew it'd be hard but I didn't think it would really be that hard. I didn't think we'd both bawl at least. I came over to her house right after school and we hung out like normal then as the minutes past it was time for her to start her drive up to good ol' idaho. I gave her her waffle crisp (our favorite cereal haha), gatorade, and frame that i made her then we hugged goodbye, and we both lost it. I think me driving home in that condition was a bad idea... ha lets just say i couldn't see the road. but hey i made it home safely! yeah she'll return in a few weeks to visit but for now, i'm a loner... it sucks. I miss her... ALOT! Thanks for everything Chi Chi! :) you da best.

and so it begins.

College. Is here. Yeah that's right i'm old enough to go to college... say what?! I swear college students were like really old and smart and i'm just not feelin like i'm old enough or smart enough to fit in. Utah Valley University is my new home for the next 9 months... ew. haha no i actually am lovin' it! The classes are great! My professors are all um lets just say... WEIRD! really though! but i think it'll be a good year! difficult but good! I walk through the halls and see LOTS of people from high school... some familiar faces make me want to vomit and others surely bring a smile to my face! :) I'm not gonna lie i'm not excited about starting back up with school because this summer was by far THE BEST one yet! :) here... lets just make a list of my unforgettable moments of summer 2011:

• Seven Peaks
• Becoming BEST friends with my best friend Alex Mickelsen
• Ihop at 3 am
• Sleepovers
• Walking to Kohlers
• Park City with Kate and Alex
• Lake Powell with Kate
• Shopping (i spent a little to much this summer... oops.)
• July 4th
• The Bridge, The Tree
• Endless deep conversations
• Fruit Shopping
• Snowcones/ Coldstone
• Millsite with Alex
• .... okay this list could go on! but get the point? it was a good one!! :)

Well that is all... off to work. oh ps I got promoted to trainer. yay... i get to train all the newbees. this shall be good. haha laters :)

life, it's a crazy ride.

ya know what's crazy to me? that even when i feel like all hell has broken loose, i still am happy :) i don't know why it's like this. but hey i love it.

blink of an eye.

Friday August 5, 2011. one of the worst nights of my life. you know that saying "you don't know what you've got til it's gone"? well i now understand the full truth to that. my best best friend jakob fell 45 feet while hiking up af canyon that night. the phone call from his brother telling me that jake was okay but he was in the er, was like one of those nightmares that you have. right as i hung up the phone i just stood there speechless. what are you suppose to do when you find out that your friend almost died? nobody was home. my whole family was in park city and i had to work that night so all my friends had already made their plans. it was 11:41 when i found out the news and from that point on led into a long long night. the only thing i knew to do was call zac. Jake's best friend and one of my really close friends as well. he had no idea and right as i told him he said he was coming to pick me up and we were going to see him. Zac and I were at the hospital til 3 am. long night? i'd say so. Jake had surgery the next morning and it all went well :) he's doing so good! for what happened to him. As i was with him yesterday in the hospital his grandpa told a story of his best friend going over the canyon in his car and dying. Jakob started to cry. From that point on I realized how blessed I am in my life. you never ever know what is going to happen or when it's going to happen and it can change quick. so word of advice my friends. never let a second pass by that you're going to regret. tell the people that you love that you love them. never give up on an opportunity to do something for someone else and love unconditionally.